chaos

i'm buying these two books!!! well you have to read beautiful creatures & beautiful darkness first to understand the story, i already bought them, read them, and now i just can't wait for the sequel!!! :)

resolutions

i used to believe on new year resolutions before, but then i realized, it doesn't matter whether it's new year or not, you still can have resolutions to achieve and not only for that particular year. i didn't think of anything for the new year of 2012, coz i feel like it's just the change of the date (year). i may sounds ridiculous, i know, well i still have my resolutions but not specifically the 'new year resolutions'.

however, the good changes are still good changes. congratulations for those who already achieved their goals, good job! like mine, i think i already failed it i guess? i want to complain less. i've been thinking bout this since ages, but i keep breaking it - i always confused am i complaining or expressing opinions? especially when the situations are not my side. like what i wrote on this blog, or maybe like what i'm writing now, is it a complaint or an opinion? i'm not sure either. anyway, things would be better if i appreciate more and be grateful.

therefore, to my dear friends and bloggers who read this, i want to say i am deeply sorry if i said, complained or did anything bad to you, i have a sharp tongue i admit. hope i'll learn to control it, thank you for being patient with me :)

there goes one of my many resolutions, i planned to keep it short, so till next time folks, take care!

boyfriend

#warning - not a pleasant reading ahead

boyfriend/lover/partner

totally one of the sensitive issues, lately...

i guess i'm entering the era of "looking for a life partner is essential" where it's questionable to be a single lady and you can't avoid questions from the adults whether you have someone's special yet or not, hmmppphhh...

last night, someone asked me that question, out of the blue. i was speechless, and embarrassed. please, you don't just simply ask the question in front of other people, to be specific, in front of a guy. and that guy just stared at me, waiting for my answer. embarrassing! maybe it's just a plain, simple question to you, but obviously not to me, not to someone who is approaching the end of her study period but still single.

oh wow,sounds desperate, aite?

i'm not saying that i'm in need of a lover, that's sounds so wrong, hell no, i'm just fine here. i just don't get it, why people are being insensitive? you humiliated me by asking the question in front of the others like you already know the answer but you still asking it just to show that i'm forever alone. yeah i'm single, deal with it! it's not like i'm taking away your son or stuff, so back off people! unless you are my parents or closest family, then i won't have these cursing inside of my head. like seriously, IT IS A SENSITIVE ISSUE!

*ok cool down, girl*

i believe we all have our dreams about our future life partner, our future together etc. etc. , right? i believe that someday i'll meet him, i'd waited for him like more than 22 years, of course i can wait a lil bit more, just be patient, wait for another while, okay? believe in Allah, He created us with partner. so, to those who are 'extremely' curious out there, just to answer your question, yes i am currently boyfriend-less, but insyaAllah someday i'll send you my wedding card with my husband's name on it :)