hibernation

it has been almost a week since the day i left utp. it's totally different now, i'm no longer on holiday break or semester break but to be exact, i'm on my jobless period.

i met my friends who already working and most of them told me to enjoy the holiday while you can. i do agree that once you've got the job and start working, you won't get the chance to take a break, easily. but i also can't help but feeling helpless having no guarantee whether i'll be employed or not someday. plus, both of my parents were already retired, i have to get a job as soon as possible, at least i can help with something...

sometimes it amazes me how big the pressure is when you know you are now responsible to support your family, financially, at least. i really hope i can contribute something to my family.

i hope for the best for my structured interview, may everything goes smoothly, insyaAllah...

unfold

true story.
this is the reason why I believe that a boy and a girl can NEVER be best friends. at least not for me.

two weeks

i should be preparing my final presentation slides right now, i know but i have to write this. 

i saw on facebook where a friend of mine wrote on her status that our (other) friend is currently on trip to overseas/other country. and suddenly this huge amount of jealousy came in. can't help it but i am indeed desperately jealous. i wish i got the same chance. i once applied for overseas study but failed the interview. guess i'm not fit for it. God knows the best, maybe some day, i'll make it, (for masters maybe?) insyaAllah 

and now living less than two weeks as an uni undergraduate student seems so weird. in the past, i kept denying the path that i took here, i kept asking why on earth i took engineering... it took more than 4 years for me to accept the fact that i am meant to be in this field. i'm still struggling to the end and now the end is so near...

i should continue my work.

brains

i'm surprised how two brains can work/think the same way almost all the time. i was surprised when i decided on/thought of something but didn't tell him, he thought the same thing like i did. it happened too many times but it still surprise me when it happen. maybe because we spend a lot of time together? i don't know...

someone even said that we looked alike, like brother and sister - funniest thing i heard about us.

he didn't know that i'm writing this but honestly i'm sort of thinking of him as my saviour. i won't make it if he didn't help me. he is my hero, he is my good buddy.