it's more than words

true story

2012-02-11T19:48:00.002+08:00

my current fav photo/quote

Muhammad

2012-02-04T22:35:00.010+08:00

The guy; the future spouse. The most popular current topic, especially among the mothers. I bumped into this topic, too many times. It can't be helped but being asked, accidentally discussed or heard about them. True story. It's a lie if I say I haven't thought about it, at least a bit. Honestly, most of the time, I thought about the one I shouldn't. This post is more like a reminder, especially to me, who always lost in my own thoughts, wasted.

Well have you ever feel the regret, thinking about someone that you should not, and forgetting about someone you should? A simple and quick quiz here; how much time do you spend a day remembering our prophet Muhammad (pbuh)? And how much time you wasted on remembering someone who doesn't even worth your thoughts? If your answer says you spent more time on that guy than our prophet Muhammad (pbuh), shame on you. Shame on me too. I don't want to point finger to anyone but myself, I have to admit, I spent little time remembering our prophet Muhammad (pbuh). If it's not because of the public holiday on his birthday, I don't even remember when it is. Shame on me.

Rather than doing or thinking about useless things, let's change, shall we? Let's spend more time remembering our prophet Muhammad (pbuh), let's pray du'a and selawat. Let's become a good ummah from now on. May Allah bless him. May Allah bless us.

اللَّهُمَّ صَلِّ عَلَى مُحَمَّدٍ وَعَلَى آلِ مُحَمَّدٍ

Allahumma salli `ala muhammadin wa`ala ali muhammad

Ya Tuhan kami, selawatkanlah ke atas Nabi Muhammad dan ke atas keluarganya.

chaos

2012-01-31T01:23:00.002+08:00

i'm buying these two books!!! well you have to read beautiful creatures & beautiful darkness first to understand the story, i already bought them, read them, and now i just can't wait for the sequel!!! :)

resolutions

2012-01-28T03:20:00.003+08:00

i used to believe on new year resolutions before, but then i realized, it doesn't matter whether it's new year or not, you still can have resolutions to achieve and not only for that particular year. i didn't think of anything for the new year of 2012, coz i feel like it's just the change of the date (year). i may sounds ridiculous, i know, well i still have my resolutions but not specifically the 'new year resolutions'.

however, the good changes are still good changes. congratulations for those who already achieved their goals, good job! like mine, i think i already failed it i guess? i want to complain less. i've been thinking bout this since ages, but i keep breaking it - i always confused am i complaining or expressing opinions? especially when the situations are not my side. like what i wrote on this blog, or maybe like what i'm writing now, is it a complaint or an opinion? i'm not sure either. anyway, things would be better if i appreciate more and be grateful.

therefore, to my dear friends and bloggers who read this, i want to say i am deeply sorry if i said, complained or did anything bad to you, i have a sharp tongue i admit. hope i'll learn to control it, thank you for being patient with me :)

there goes one of my many resolutions, i planned to keep it short, so till next time folks, take care!

boyfriend

2012-01-17T23:03:00.003+08:00

#warning - not a pleasant reading ahead

boyfriend/lover/partner

totally one of the sensitive issues, lately...

i guess i'm entering the era of "looking for a life partner is essential" where it's questionable to be a single lady and you can't avoid questions from the adults whether you have someone's special yet or not, hmmppphhh...

last night, someone asked me that question, out of the blue. i was speechless, and embarrassed. please, you don't just simply ask the question in front of other people, to be specific, in front of a guy. and that guy just stared at me, waiting for my answer. embarrassing! maybe it's just a plain, simple question to you, but obviously not to me, not to someone who is approaching the end of her study period but still single.

oh wow,sounds desperate, aite?

i'm not saying that i'm in need of a lover, that's sounds so wrong, hell no, i'm just fine here. i just don't get it, why people are being insensitive? you humiliated me by asking the question in front of the others like you already know the answer but you still asking it just to show that i'm forever alone. yeah i'm single, deal with it! it's not like i'm taking away your son or stuff, so back off people! unless you are my parents or closest family, then i won't have these cursing inside of my head. like seriously, IT IS A SENSITIVE ISSUE!

*ok cool down, girl*

i believe we all have our dreams about our future life partner, our future together etc. etc. , right? i believe that someday i'll meet him, i'd waited for him like more than 22 years, of course i can wait a lil bit more, just be patient, wait for another while, okay? believe in Allah, He created us with partner. so, to those who are 'extremely' curious out there, just to answer your question, yes i am currently boyfriend-less, but insyaAllah someday i'll send you my wedding card with my husband's name on it :)

macaroon

2011-12-28T11:43:00.005+08:00

it's hard to resist these, look at all the pics, so tempting!!!! even though i'm not a fancy-coloured-food fan, i do have to admit, it's irresistible! thumbs up from me :)

(i don't own the pics, got it from Google)

hayley williams

2011-12-26T10:11:00.002+08:00

"Any struggle or pain that you experience just get you to the top and you can’t get there without making the climb. A few years later, you won’t remember exactly the way the pain felt or how long it took, you’ll remember the view from the top. In fact, you might smile at the fact you had to work to get there." - hayley

Sesame Street: Bruno Mars: Don't Give Up

2011-12-12T11:50:00.001+08:00

Don't give up my friends, we got Elmo and the gang! XD

kfcm

2011-11-28T23:16:00.004+08:00

i shall say, i'm amazed with my own reaction when someone insulted our national team due to their losses to Bahrain recently. i am more amazed on how attached i feel to this one particular team, the one and only, Harimau Muda. my friends thought it was strikingly odd and unusual for me, who never have the slightest interest on any soccer matches, let alone watch one suddenly have the passion, interest and eagerness. epic! i should tell you something, in my whole life, i never watch a complete match till today, well at least i tried to watch the whole match of Malaysia-Indonesia, but the rain caused some disruptions and thanks to Astro, i missed the first 20 minutes. never mind though, it was a good game. i'm proud of them! i am still proud of them even though they lost to Syria and Bahrain, well it's a game, sometimes you're on top, sometimes you're at the bottom. it's funny just to hear myself fend for them, giving my full support through rise and fall. i bet u won't see me doing this before, hehe... i guess he made me changed my mind :P

jerk

2011-11-17T10:52:00.001+08:00

i'm in deep stress, i'm miserable and i'm being a jerk.

and i have test at 3pm. feel like crying now.

I HATE MYSELF!!!!

re: cinderella man

2011-11-12T23:10:00.002+08:00

i can't help but notice there's a lot of visitors from Indonesia visiting my post - cinderella man these few days, i bet it's on air at your local tv station isn't it? hope you'll enjoy the drama as much as i do, especially my handsome man, Kwon Sang Woo, hehe :)

the one that got away

2011-11-09T08:27:00.001+08:00

i don't know how and why but i keep having these related weird dreams coming to me almost every night. is there any meaning behind all of these? only Allah knows...

p/s: i was thinking to post "the one that got away" vid instead of this, but there's no full vid yet, nwm, i still love my david cook more, lol :)

changes

2011-11-07T22:03:00.008+08:00

dear blog,

i found it unnecessary to post something here especially when i keep writing-erase it-writing again-and erase it again!but i managed to write this one...

well final year is being a bit harsh to me, i'm losing lots of hair due to stress! seriously, i did expect these to come (i mean the busyness and the stress, not the hair loss!) but sometimes, i lost my grip on it. i failed to handle it somehow, lost to my own rage and defeat.

what can i say, people change, so do i...

i found a new part of me, the part where i make my stand and say what's on my mind straight away. maybe it's already there in my blood, but i didn't realize it till this semester. i'm voicing out my opinions, arguing, defending of what i think is right. i didn't say that i did nothing to stand up for my opinions before, but i prefer to make it less apparent. not anymore folks! well it's good to be able to be outspoken, but in some situation, i have to say that i do regret to say it out loud, when you hurt someone's feeling with your bold statements. sorry people, my bad!

someone said to me that i argue a lot these days-have to agree on that. poor roomate, she has to listen to all my dissatisfaction and discontentedness. i promise to you that i'll try to be more patient in future, hope i can control myself and THINK carefully before making any statements or comments.

"Towards a better personality, insyaAllah"

lightweight

2011-10-01T21:28:00.000+08:00

takdir Allah

2011-09-05T17:09:00.001+08:00

kalau Allah sudah takdirkan sesuatu itu untuk kita, walau seluruh isi alam ini menghalang kita dari mendapatkannya, kita tetap akan dapat jua. Tetapi jika Allah sudah takdirkan sesuatu itu BUKAN untuk kita, walau seluruh isi alam ini membantu kita untuk mendapatkannya, tetap kita tak akan dapat. - quoted from Rakan Masjid facebook

boredom

2011-08-31T23:36:00.001+08:00

raya is almost meaningless to me this year. the most boring raya i've ever had.
believe me.

quotes

2011-08-20T04:27:00.004+08:00

quote

2011-08-16T01:09:00.007+08:00

quoted from my friend's Facebook status, totally agree with it!

coz just a simple SMS can make me smile for the whole day :)

hair

2011-08-13T15:50:00.002+08:00

i had a dream last nite, i dyed my hair auburn. yes auburn. go Google it - auburn hair. well, actually i wanted to dye my hair brown but somehow i bought the wrong colour?

the funny part was, i was soooo freakin scared that my dad would kill me if he knows i dyed my hair auburn. the colour was quite nice though. LOL! y i had this weird dream? like i would dye my hair? hahaha funny isn't it? :P

p/s: i thought i won't be having weird dreams during Ramadhan

2nd home

2011-08-01T00:22:00.006+08:00

I know it's a lil bit exaggerate but i do feel like Sarawak is my second home,
what can i say, I LOVE Sarawak! I love my friends there, friends that i met during that 8 months. I miss them already!
I'm in the process of claiming for Air Asia's insurance, if i manage to claim it, i'll get rm200 voucher (due to the delay). then i can buy ticket for hari raya at Sarawak!!! :D

ok i'm too excited here! wish that i'll get the voucher, so i can use it as an excuse to go to Sarawak, since it's a free ticket, weeee!!!!!!!!! XD

p/s: Happy Ramadhan everyone, hope it's a bless for all of us :)

don't trust me

2011-07-10T15:06:00.003+08:00

WARNING: this post is all about me. like it always be.

i have serious major problem here. MAJOR i mean it a VERY BIG problem.
i have to write it down fast before i forgot, because that's my problem.
MEMORY LOSS. don't know whether it's a long term or short term thing.

according to Dr. NISA, it's a severe problem.
i had it like since long time ago, and i still can't find the reason.
obviously i don't eat ants, if that's your guess, and i'm totally not going to drink water with insects, ant especially inside it. gross!

so, how serious my memory loss is?
i still can remember my name though, so maybe u can say it's not that bad.
my situations here are:

Situation #1: I remember the event but I don't remember the timeline
for example; i knew that i met my supervisor to ask him something, but when was it? was it yesterday or last 2 days? the right answer: this morning. i felt like it was ages. that's how bad it can be.

Situation #2: i can't remember what i did last night
i had this situation for many many many times. it's troublesome really.

Situation #3: i can't remember a thing at all.
the worst part of my memory loss. it's frustrating when i totally can't remember some things. i hate it when i argue with my friends on something that i believe it didn't happen but actually it did but i don't remember it. it happens most of the time i guess. errr, can't remember -_-"

Situation #4: i said "dah lama tak ......". TIPU. BIG FAT LIAR. i just did it few days ago. so don't take it 100%. sometimes i accidentally lie to u coz i don't remember it exactly.

see how bad my memory is?
looking on the bright side, it did me good things when u have memory loss, especially when u are angry with someone. i can forgive that person easily when i forgot the anger, the hate and the issues. it helps me to heal my heart after the heartbreak. i can forget the heartache...

whatever it is, just hope i do remember u when we meet. hope it don't get any worse than this.

iridescent

2011-07-10T11:20:00.001+08:00

When you were standing in the wake of devastation
When you were waiting on the edge of the unknown
And with the cataclysm raining down
Insides crying, "Save me now"
You were there impossibly alone
Do you feel cold and lost in desperation
You build up hope but failure's all you've known
Remember all the sadness and frustration
And let it go
Let it go
And in a burst of light that blinded every angel
As if the sky had blown the heavens into stars
You felt the gravity of tempered grace
Falling into empty space
No one there to catch you in their arms
Do you feel cold and lost in desperation
You build up hope but failure's all you've known
Remember all the sadness and frustration
And let it go
Let it go

me love

2011-06-06T22:55:00.001+08:00

can i get a kiss from Charles Kelley please?? haha kidding! :P

drama

2011-06-06T05:12:00.003+08:00

i wish you read this, you know who you are

i wonder if you know what you're doing right now is wrong, coz i find it's difficult to believe you, the soft spoken person that i knew are doing that shamelessly. maybe you are confused or maybe that's who you are exactly. if then, i guess you are a fake person and you are shameless. May Allah bless you. May Allah shows you the right path.

and i wonder what action should i take. between right and wrong. which ever decision i choose, i know it's going to hurt. O Allah, please shows me Your Guidance.

sincerely,
the angry observer

courage

2011-05-23T22:36:00.002+08:00

and i don't have that courage.

beautiful creatures

2011-04-23T08:17:00.011+08:00

my way to kill the time, even though i'm not a bookworm, i think this book is worth a reading. 156 pages to go. let's see if i'll give it a good rating after finishing it :)

* * *

Comment: i really like this book! first book ever that made me bought it (i'm not really a book lover, so i only read the e-book). really worth every ringgit of it. now i'm currently reading the sequel of the story... Beautiful Darkness

I ALREADY BOUGHT THESE TWO BOOKS!!!!

pretty ugly

2011-04-13T23:14:00.002+08:00

just now on fb, lots of my friends are talking bout beauty on their status/post, what are beauty in their point of view, for example:

"dark guy is fine. dark ladies,isn't fine ooh.."

when i saw this status, i can't help but feel to share my thought about it...
first of all, yup i'm not in the "fair lady" group, so obviously it concerned me a bit. but i think i'm getting used to the idea of "the fairer the better" so it doesn't hurt me at all, neutral. good for me i guess. but (again) i wonder, why people are having this unfair mindset about skin colour? why is it being fair is being considered as good and dark is bad? especially for ladies...isn't it bias?

if guys think only fair lady is considered pretty, i think the number of unmarried ladies will be jumped up very high, including me, unmarried. wow, that's serious...i'm sick of this, not going to write any further (a short thought, i know). whatever it is, you are beautiful no matter who you are,ok people, let's enjoy the vid :)

Lenka - Heart Skips A Beat

2011-04-04T21:46:00.000+08:00

my heart skips a beat! XD

work

2011-04-02T01:35:00.003+08:00

it's almost 5 months for us being an intern here. I believe I gained plenty of knowledge and information and at least from knowing nothing I do know something. one of lesson learned being a trainee is don't be too humble, do show what's your contribution. easy way to say it; show off your work. we have to, or else, they think you're lazy and doing nothing at work. but even though you're showing it, do your job sincerely, it will be more appreciated and you won't feel like being forced to do it.

oh for those who didn't know what's my job, well... my job doesn't require me to wear formal/feminine. when my housemates busy choosing what to wear to work tomorrow, i just need to worry whether i have clean shorts and singlets to wear. simple. the bad part is, i'm getting too used to wearing them, so when i was wearing baju kurung like yesterday,i'm kinda rough. tidak sopan.

tak tahu nak merapu apa lagi, sampai sini sajalah ye, tata bloggers!

suffocated

2011-03-30T23:29:00.002+08:00

trapped between two. i want my freedom. from this. but sometimes i love being trapped in here. don't want to get rationale. have to agree to my friend's fb status : if only i could lie to myself

words

2011-03-26T00:25:00.004+08:00

"I sound stupid if I speak in Malay" - Sharifah Amani

Totally against that statement. Be true to yourself. I'm proud that I can speak in Malay fluently, but i have to admit that I do avoid writing in Malay because i don't want to sound 'jiwang' (errr can't find suitable English word for this one). Can't help it coz i feel like if I'm writing in Malay, it'll convey more meaning than it should.heheh

That's why i prefer listening to English songs rather than Malay songs. Since English is my second language, it sounds less 'jiwang' when you say the lovey dovey words.LOL.

Plus, i like to use the lyrics to express my current feeling, i did check on the lyrics before i posted the videos on my fb/blog. Really enjoy using songs as the medium. Except when u shared wrong song to the wrong person -_-"

Anyway, song for my current situation : Christina Perri - Jar of Hearts

sportswoman

2011-03-22T23:34:00.006+08:00

i can say that last week was sport week for me, very SPORTY! it was fun and enjoyable with the netball and futsal tournament, i'm proud to join LOTUS team :)

tomorrow, we'll continue with volleyball tournament, hope we can give our best!!!

girlfriends

2011-03-13T15:13:00.002+08:00

i'm seriously missing my past and present girlfriends, especially those who shared the laughter and pain with me... they r my backbone besides of my family, because of them, i made through till this point

thank you girls, i dedicate this post for you :)

Who You Are

2011-03-07T23:49:00.000+08:00

Don't lose who you are in the blur of the stars

Seeing is deceiving, dreaming is believing,

It's okay not to be okay.

Sometimes it's hard to follow your heart.

But tears don't mean you're losing, everybody's bruising,

There's nothing wrong with who you are

entri

2011-03-07T22:06:00.002+08:00

baru tersedar, sejak dua menjak ni, entri blog banyak bertemakan perasaan.marah.benci.suka.duka.keliru.semua ada.

mungkin sebab blog tempat terbaik untuk luahkan apa yang tak terkongsi dengan keluarga dan rakan-rakan. tapi tak sangka, ada juga yang membaca, terima kasih kerana meluangkan masa ;)

cakap pasal hati, teringat sebelum ni pernah terdetik "kan best kalau ada orang suka aku, tak kisah lah kalau orang tu aku tak suka ke apa, asalkan ada orang suka aku". mungkin kata-kata tu telah menjadi doa yang termakbul. terlajak kata, menyesal rasanya. jangan dibuat main-main soal hati. bunyi memang macam best ada orang yang berminat dengan kita, tapi tidak lagi best apabila orang itu berpotensi membawa bahaya kepada anda.pening kepala. apatah lagi apabila ada orang lain di hati anda. mulalah hati berkata lagi "kan best kalau orang yang suka aku tu adalah orang yang aku suka" . nahhh, secara tak langsung terdoa lagi. bahaya lagi. tak semestinya orang yang kita suka tu adalah yang terbaik bagi kita.

hanya Allah sahaja yang tahu apa yang terbaik untuk kita. Dia yang Maha Mengetahui. Subhanallah. jadi, sebelum keluarkan kata-kata, fikir dahulu.

Ya Allah, jika lelaki itu bukan untukku, kau jauhkanlah aku daripada perasaaan ini, tetapi sekiranya benarlah lelaki itu jodohku, kau permudahkanlah jodoh kami, dan jauhkanlah kami daripada bisikan syaitan yang direjam. amin ya rabbal alamin

single

2011-03-01T23:02:00.003+08:00

i just realized this evening how sensitive i was when talking bout relationship thing. it hurts when people say that you're single because you're being too choosy and demanding - i felt like crying when people judged me without understanding the situation here. i'm nothing but a plain, boring person, yes i know that, how can man likes me? but please, don't say it so casually like i'm a heartless person. i do have feelings, i do like someone, i do feel happy when i see him, but nothing's right for me. i keep falling for the wrong guys, and it took a very long period to recover from it, my heart is not designed to handle this, i'm tired of crying. seriously.

don't get me wrong, i'm not that desperate to get a boyfriend.just accept the fact that i am single and don't let it bother you. it's not your problem. it's me we're talking about, don't easily tell me to accept this or that guy just because he's single too, especially when you know who's exactly in my heart. my heart isn't a ball that you can pass around, it's very fragile - for your information.

i don't care if you say that i'm being emotional here, yes i am, it's my blog by the way, remember? so to anyone out there, before you say anything, think first. to those who are concerned, just wait for my wedding day card okay. that's all then, bye bye

wounded

2011-02-15T10:31:00.004+08:00

agree with the statement : let time heals the wounds. it is a good medicine, especially for someone with not a very good memory, like me. i remember being betrayed by someone before, but i forgot how it hurts, when time passed i realized that i can forgive that person. once the feeling's gone, everything's going to be okay.

hope it works this time around.even though the situation is different.

how i wish i have some sort of feeling's controller, i can control how much to be sad, how much to be happy, how much to get angry...but life isn't that easy right?

a major FLAW for this medicine, i don't know how much 'dose' that needed to be consumed till it's works and i'm okay...no doctor can be referred, just let time heals the wounds

i am me

2011-02-04T00:33:00.004+08:00

Don't lose who you are in the blurs of the stars

Seeing is deceiving, dreaming is believing

It's okay not to be okay

Sometimes it's hard to follow your heart

But tears don't mean you're losing, everybody's bruising

Just be true to who you are

who you are

hard to swallow

2011-01-27T00:38:00.003+08:00

have you been in a situation where you are not the one who cause the problem, but being blamed because you are the one who explaining the situation on behalf of the guilty person? to make it worse, you and the misunderstood person already in an awkward situation due to some arguments. WELL, THAT'S MY SITUATION RIGHT NOW. i hate it because if i tell them who is responsible for it, it'll looks like i'm blaming someone else to save my face but if if didn't tell them who, they thought that it was me who is guilty! and the real guilty person is not even being blamed, it's not fair isn't it? i wish someone will explain everything for me...even though it's just a small problem, it can cause riot you know, especially when it's involving someone close to you, oh my....

i'm sorry

2011-01-24T19:32:00.003+08:00

i would like to dedicate this post to my precious friends here in miri : emmi,fiqie,bob and sap

i'm sorry for breaking the promise i made

i'm sorry for causing distress and inconveniences

i'm sorry for withdrawing myself from the plan on the last minutes

i'm really sorry :'(

And we don't know how,
How we got into this mess is a god's test,
Someone help us cause we're doing our best,
Trying to make it work but man these times are hard

if you stay

2011-01-19T22:11:00.000+08:00

sarawak

2011-01-15T23:36:00.004+08:00

hello blogger!
miss my blog so much...too many updates n i dunno where to start, i promise i'll wrote everything once we hv streamyx here, maybe in 1 week, i wish!

for time being, what can i say is there r ups and downs here being far from family,it's challenging but interesting experience... i value my friends here a lot, i don't how to survive without them. thanks guys!

sik tauk bah maok padah pa, lamak glak sik tulis,kmk blank! kelak kmk tulis pjg2...

today

2010-12-04T02:03:00.006+08:00

finally the big day has come. luggage - almost done and still got few kilos before i exceed the limit, i'll add some more later,hehe... emotional condition - unknown, i just worry whether i bring enough stuffs, haha (gelak tak ikhlas di situ)

btw, i'm very touched with those encouraging and concerned wishes, thanks everyone. i know im kinda mencari publisiti when i post it everyday on my fb, gtalk... just to see who's care n aware of it,hehe....last but not least, to those who want to reach me there, reach me thru msg/call ya...i'm not sure how long we'll live w/o internet, maybe 1 month? omigosh...

well, that's all i think

ok talk to you later readers,take care :)

xoxo

owl

2010-12-01T04:17:00.003+08:00

i have problem with my sleeping time since i'm back here in my home. it's not like i'm having a jet lag (back from tronoh definitely not worth of buying flight ticket) but i have trouble adjusting the time. it's 4.19 in the morning, and i'm not sleepy, still having energy blogging and listening to music. alang-alang da pukul 4, it's better to wait for subuh's prayer right?

p/s : it's super cold!

Beetle!!

2010-12-01T00:40:00.001+08:00

Oprah's Favorite Things 2010 - Beetle Giveaway

i want one! it's my dream car! T____T

the days

2010-11-30T00:52:00.004+08:00

finally the exams are over and now the focus is on the oncoming internship. only few days r left for the preparation, mentally and physically. but let's focus on the mental part. definitely in need to prepare myself to:

get used to new surrounding - i hate big migration, it's hard to get settled but we can make it, go go girls!
be strong and try not to feel homesick - this is the biggest challenge, where I've never been this far away from my family - now i understand emmi's feeling
be a good intern, hardworking and responsible

well, i'm looking forward for these stuffs:

move in to the house with emmi, yana, fiqie and hui chie - i'm going to make it feel like home, definitely!
cooking time with emmi, let's try lotsa recipes!!! XD
travelling with the girls - the most awaiting event! mesti kumpul duit for this :D

anyway i hope my job is not only bout this

only make coffee for the boss

and i hope i can be like this

the best intern

and earn my key to

success

HAPPY INTERNSHIP YOU ALL!

wanted

2010-11-23T09:09:00.002+08:00

i demand freedom - 5 days left

u can do it

2010-11-22T17:53:00.000+08:00

it's very impressive how creative a human's brain works when dealing with critical situation. in this case - examinations. very creative and innovative u can be, creating and modifying the formulas, inventing new theories and of course it's applicable to me. hmppph we must not give up, isn't it? strive to answer the questions, no matter how hard it is, never leave the paper blank.

fes

2010-11-20T01:07:00.000+08:00

depressed, progress - 5%

time left - 30 hours

ya Allah, please give hidayah to all of us to deal with this subject

amin.

brand new blog

2010-11-18T13:37:00.003+08:00

i'm not sure what happened to my page - the blog lists were missing where i need to retrieve it back, i hate the page, i feel like deleting the blog, i'm tired with the internet, bla bla bla...therefore, i decided to 'reformat' my blog, several options that i'm considering now;

Just delete the blog and make a new one
Change the address so people won't find my page anymore
Delete everything and start a brand new blog ( which is more like option 1)
Or make another blog, my secret blog where i can write anything i want (my secret diary?)

hmmm dunno lah, due to undoubtedly slow internet connection here where i have to refresh like many times per page, i don't think i can pick any of those options, it takes tahap dewa punya patience to do it which i don't have it rite now. I feel like screaming, emo emo -_-"

p/s - if you can read this post, that means i managed to publish it after at least 10 times of trials

Azab wanita

2010-10-31T21:20:00.000+08:00

Saudara dan saudari kaum muslimin dan muslimat

Renungan

khususnya untuk para wanita dan diriku sendiri.....

Sayidina Ali ra menceritakan suatu ketika melihat

Rasulullah saw menangis manakala ia datang bersama Fatimah.

Lalu keduanya bertanya mengapa Rasulullah saw menangis. Beliau menjawab,

"Pada malam aku di-isra'- kan , aku melihat perempuan-perempuan yang sedang disiksa dengan berbagai siksaan. Itulah sebabnya mengapa aku menangis. Karena, menyaksikan mereka yang sangat berat dan mengerikan siksanya.

Putri Rasulullah saw kemudian menanyakan apa yang dilihat ayahandanya. "Aku lihat ada perempuan digantung rambutnya, otaknya mendidih.

Aku lihat perempuan digantung lidahnya, tangannya diikat ke belakang dan timah cair dituangkan ke dalam tengkoraknya.

Aku lihat perempuan tergantung kedua kakinya dengan terikat tangannya sampai ke ubun-ubunnya, diulurkan ular dan kalajengking.

Dan aku lihat perempuan yang memakan badannya sendiri, di bawahnya dinyalakan api neraka. Serta aku lihat perempuan yang bermuka hitam, memakan tali perutnya sendiri.

Aku lihat perempuan yang telinganya pekak dan matanya buta, dimasukkan ke dalam peti yang dibuat dari api neraka, otaknya keluar dari lubang hidung, badannya berbau busuk karena penyakit sopak dan kusta.

Aku lihat perempuan yang badannya seperti himar,

beribu-ribu kesengsaraan dihadapinya. Aku lihat perempuan yang

rupanya seperti anjing, sedangkan api masuk melalui mulut dan keluar dari duburnya sementara malikat memukulnya dengan pentung dari api neraka,"kata Nabi saw.

Fatimah Az-Zahra kemudian menanyakan mengapa mereka

disiksa seperti itu?

*Rasulullah menjawab, "Wahai putriku, adapun mereka yang tergantung rambutnya hingga otaknya mendidih adalah wanita yang tidak menutup rambutnya sehingga terlihat oleh laki-laki yang bukan muhrimnya.

*Perempuan yang digantung susunya adalah istri yang 'mengotori' tempat tidurnya.

*Perempuan yang tergantung kedua kakinya ialah perempuan yang tidak taat kepada suaminya, ia keluar rumah tanpa izin suaminya, dan perempuan yang tidak mau mandi suci dari haid dan nifas.

*Perempuan yang memakan badannya sendiri ialah karena ia berhias untuk lelaki yang bukan muhrimnya dan suka mengumpat orang lain.

*Perempuan yang memotong badannya sendiri dengan gunting api neraka karena ia memperkenalkan dirinya kepada orang yang kepada orang lain bersolek dan berhias supaya kecantikannya dilihat laki-laki yang bukan muhrimnya.

*Perempuan yang diikat kedua kaki dan tangannya ke atas ubun-ubunnya diulurkan ular dan kalajengking padanya karena ia bisa shalat tapi tidak mengamalkannya dan tidak mau mandi junub.

*Perempuan yang kepalanya seperti babi dan badannya seperti himar ialah tukang umpat dan pendusta. Perempuan yang menyerupai anjing ialah perempuan yang suka memfitnah dan membenci suami."Mendengar itu, Sayidina Ali dan Fatimah Az-Zahra pun turut menangis.

Dan inilah peringatan kepada kaum perempuan.

talking to the moon

2010-10-19T01:46:00.005+08:00

lately - i have no interest/idea/mood/time to write anything in this blog

lately - i prefer to read people's blog, checking the updates w/o updating mine

"At night when the stars light up my room,

I sit by myself talking to the moon"

-Bruno Mars-

Sami Yusuf - Healing

2010-10-01T09:29:00.000+08:00

billionaire

2010-09-29T22:53:00.004+08:00

i wanna be a billionaire?

no i don't want to, too many thing to think about

let me share sumthg, but im too lazy to translate it,

just use 'Google translate' if u can't understand...

__________________________________

Pernah seorang pemuda bertanya pada Saidina Ali..

" Wahai Ali, manakah lebih berguna , ilmu atau harta? "

Lantas Ali menjawab.
"Sudah tentulah Ilmu itu lebih baik"

berkata pemuda itu lagi
"atas dalil apakah kau katakan begitu wahai Ali? "

jawab Ali.
"ketahuilah, sebenarnya ilmu itulah yang akan menjaga kamu. tetapi harta itu pula kamu yang menjaganya"

Kekayaan sebenar bukan pada emas dan wang..
kekayaan sebenar bukan pada aset dan harta.

kekayaan jiwa dan iman itu lah yang akan menjadi wang bekalan ketika kita keseorangan bertemankan kain kapan dan serangga dalam tiang lahad nanti.

kekayaan jiwa dan iman itu lah yang akan menjadi modal untuk kita membeli tiket ke syurga Allah SWT kelak..

_________________________________________________________

for original post, u can click this link Apabila taraf wang kertas sama dengan tisu pengelap

battleship

2010-09-24T08:22:00.003+08:00

today, we have a battle!

battle of the hard rock concrete

never say no before you try to encounter it

i shall give my best, insyaAllah

may peace and knowledge accompany me

be brave be bold!

pray for my success

Allahuakbar!

split personality

2010-09-08T02:37:00.004+08:00

half of my heart goes to :PARAMORE and Lady Antebellum

the other half goes to Maher Zain and Sami Yusuf

pretty opposite, isn't it

and i called it as 'split personality'

well then i have to agree with Fyodor Dostoyevsky

"Good and evil are fighting there.

And the battlefield is the heart of man."

the good old days

2010-08-08T23:02:00.007+08:00

really had a great time with the 3rdfivers today at Farahin's wedding after 3 years not seeing each other (most of them) . it was short but lively, jolly, colourful and of course LOUD - capital letter here to emphasize it :p

errrr.... the bride and the groom were so busy diz time so we take picture 1st lah,haha...oh here is the pic with them :)

erkkkk cant see their faces clearly is it? let see another pic...

Nur Farahin Abdul Arif & Mohamad Zulfikrie Abas

Barakallahu lakuma

ryan star

2010-07-30T14:23:00.002+08:00

let go of the fear

let go of the doubt

let go of the ones

who try to put you down

you're gonna be fine

don't hold it inside

if you hurt right now

then let it all come out

breathe, just breathe

bloody monday 2

2010-07-28T01:58:00.002+08:00

Good and evil are fighting there.

And the battlefield is the heart of man.

-Fyodor Dostoyevsky-

me

2010-07-26T23:38:00.001+08:00

I am who I am
And you can’t change me
I’ve done what I can
And I’ll stand my ground

July 2010 semester

2010-07-25T13:57:00.003+08:00

i love my July 2010 semester timetable! since tutorial n labs haven't started yet,there's only 1 class for each day, and oh yeah no class at all on Friday! heaven isn't it! XD

gotta fight for that sessions of lab/tutorial to make sure i'm free on Friday for the whole semester.hoho i'm all high spirited right now!

let's face the new chapter of our academic life with joy,passion and spirit!

spirit of love, toil and sacrifice!

new start

2010-07-20T02:29:00.004+08:00

it's hard to start it all over again

should i pretend like nothing happened?

i know it won't be the same

maybe i should go with the flow

and see what's going to happen.

i hate this awkwardness.

please remember me

2010-07-02T11:09:00.002+08:00

"You'll find better love,

 Strong as it ever was,

Deep as the river runs,

Warm as the morning sun.

Please remember me."

  -Tim McGraw-

cinderella man

2010-06-30T06:43:00.003+08:00

1st of all, i'm not a korean drama fan, i'd rather say i prefer jdrama (but still not a fan though).

well, since i have this in my HD, plus the hot Kwon Sang Woo as the main cast, can't resist to watch it (lol!)

p/s : Kwon Sang Woo was sooooo hot n definitely not a 'jambu' type of guy! hehe ;D

of macaroni and cheese

2010-06-22T15:32:00.004+08:00

ok,honestly im really craving for mac n cheese,so bad!i browsed the internet n found many recipes to make this super mouthwatering delicious pasta meal,i choose this one,it's easy!
well, i haven't try it yet but from the steps i can tell u, the outcome will be superb!!haha...

i'm going home tomorrow n let's make it!!

Macaroni and Cheese - Serves 4

Ingredients

1 pound elbow pasta
1/2 cup butter (1 stick)
1/2 cup flour
4 cups milk
1/2 t. dried mustard or up to 1 tsp. Dijon mustard (optional)
A few shakes of cayenne pepper (optional)
10 to 12 ounces extra sharp cheddar
1/2 t. salt (to taste)

Steps

Heat the milk but don't let it boil. Keep it warm
Grate the cheese coarsely and set aside.
Cook the macaroni according to the instruction on the packet.
To make the white sauce : Melt the butter over medium-low heat, then stir in the flour with a wire whisk (this is called a roux). Turn the burner down a bit and let the roux bubble a few minutes (make sure the butter does not burn). Continue to stir to cook the flour a bit, but don't let it brown. Stir in the warm milk all at once, stirring vigorously with the whisk to smooth out any lumps. Whisk in the mustard and cayenne if you are using them and let the sauce bubble gently for about 2 minutes.
Drain the macaroni,giving it a few good shakes to get as much water out as possible.
Remove the sauce from the stove and stir it in the grated cheese and the cooked macaroni. Stir until it is well mixed, then add salt and pepper to taste.
Serve it right away :)

quote

2010-06-21T21:12:00.006+08:00

i read this book about the importance of youth to the nation by Rakan Muda and Ministry of Youth and Sports (cant remember the book's title) today , they wrote about our previous prime ministers and their roles to our nation. suddenly i felt so patriotic, grateful and proud because we have these incredible persons as our leaders. without them, there will be no us like today. here some meaningful words from them:

I am not an important person to the country,
but the important thing is what can I do for the country?

-Tun Hussein Onn-

To our fighters who fight for the independence, they will always be remembered,
To those who was born after the independence, it's their responsibility to value the sacrifices made by the fighters

-Tun Dr Mahathir Mohammad-

Malaysia, tanah airku :)

the last song

2010-06-21T05:33:00.006+08:00

i just finished reading this book,it's worth to cry for!

haven't got the chance to watch the movie yet, cant wait to go home to download it! :)

p/s: towards the end, i can't stop crying reading the book n yeah 1 more thing, Will Blakelee - certainly the type of guy that i like :)

a rocket to the moon

2010-06-17T22:18:00.002+08:00

can i get a rocket to the moon so i can leave this place immediately please?

only Allah knows

2010-06-16T21:40:00.002+08:00

kakak kata...

"orang dengki biasalah,yang penting give the best,amanah kena buat,

so just give the best!".

counting days

2010-06-06T21:38:00.002+08:00

cant wait to be at home.i'll finish my MARA SCIENCE CAMP insyaAllah on wednesday n planning to buy ticket on thursday.BUT, since my mum said,wait for udi n balik with him on friday,guess my holiday is extremely short this time. friday-sunday,wah terbaiklah! 3days only n then busy with MAP. so i'll be home again on 29th june i guess T_T

i miss my holidays where i can do anything on the nite without worrying i have class/test/quiz/things to do tomorrow.i miss those precious days!

well,there are some good things when we are stranded at utp during sem break.keep a positive mind honey!it's not dat bad! (oh sadis kena pujuk ati sendiri)

anyway, looking 4wd to meet those mrsm students tomorrow,gotta go!
tata readers! :)

gila!

2010-06-02T21:36:00.003+08:00

im in serious depression state,almost gila here,not enjoying this thing anymore.feel like killing that person,thank Allah im still sane,or else im in jail right now,yeah i mean it.

i wish June to end soon.

miss u miss u

2010-05-31T19:45:00.002+08:00

i miss my bestfriends! faridah , paa ,nab, dilah and zati.rindu nak jumpa,rindu nak sembang,rindu nak gelak,rindu nak lepak sama-sama,bila kita akan jumpa? :(

structural analysis

2010-05-31T19:20:00.002+08:00

oh for SA,definitely im not gonna do the "i love SA" logo thing like TPE and DOSS.how i hate this subject,everything about structure.STATICS.SOLID MECHANICS.THEORY OF STRUCTURE and now STRUCTURAL ANALYSIS.

oh my,why do i have to learn all of these?derrrr...im a civil engineering student!how can i avoid those complicated subjects!i'd prefer something else,civil engineering is not only about structure,so for my major,im so not going to do the structural thing, bye bye to Construction Technology,im not going to choose u.maybe i'll consider Environmental Engineering.hmmmmm we'll think bout this later.

for now,i have to bear for less than 1 day with this STRUCTURAL ANALYSIS as tomorrow is the day.my last final exam paper.woohoo,cant wait 4 dat but seriously have no idea how am i gonna answer the questions,scary!im terrified but have no will to overcome it,aiyoo SA,i hate u!

sweet song

2010-05-27T17:45:00.003+08:00

***

If you see him, tell him I wish him well
How am I doing? Well, sometimes it's hard to tell
I still miss him more than ever
But please don't say a word
If you see him.
If you see him.

***

lyrics from Brooks & Dunn - If You See Him,If You See Her

balik rumah,yeay yeay yeay!

2010-05-23T19:37:00.002+08:00

hoh esok ade 2 paper,DOSS n TPE...
n selasa balik rumah!!!

dah 2 bulan lebey x balik rumah,serius homesick tahap gaban
xkire nak balik jugak selasa ni,insyaAllah

mari kita balik rumah,buang semua cas2 negatif dalam diri
n recharge!!!ade lg 2 paper bile balik utp khamis nnt

kamon2,kite bertahan utk esok,pastu balik rmh,owww yeah!! XD

adil

2010-05-22T23:31:00.004+08:00

terpaksa berlaku adil,sebab xboleh nak pilih satu sahaja,sayang kedua-duanya :D

sorry naik lorry

2010-05-22T20:22:00.000+08:00

sometimes i really want to say those words that i know later i will be regretted saying it

i wish i could

sakit

2010-05-21T17:40:00.001+08:00

stress teramat sgt.hati terasa mcm nak pecah.dah xlarat.nak balik rumah.

again

2010-05-05T19:26:00.004+08:00

it happened again.but this time around, it is different. i know that im now stronger to face it, yeah again. it's not like im giving up but im giving myself a chance to breathe again, to set myself free. im a tough girl after all,rite? time to wake up, back to reality!hey reality isn't bad at all,just enjoy it to the fullest,it is so colourful if u appreciate it. remember Allah, our family and those precious best friends that we have, u are not alone, im not alone, we are not alone :]

Thank you Allah for giving me the chance to live in this beautiful world.
Subhanallah.Alhamdulillah.Lailahaillallah.Allahuakbar! :)

Thanks to my family,friends and also lecturers who are being very supportive,i heart you! :)

May Allah bless us!

-_-"

2010-04-25T23:14:00.000+08:00

I've been there before and I just can't let go.
The memories and pain of the hurt i know.
Now deep in the night, and there's passion inside....
Dare i follow my heart?

An innocent smile, then a walk in the night.
Then it's dinner at home served with candlelight,
and it's been quite a while since i felt good inside.
Dare i follow my heart?
Do i feel something special inside of you?
Do i know what you really think of me?

And the raindrops keep falling into my heart,
and i just can't deny what feels so right.
Do i let myself go and feel the rain,
or should i play with caution and refrain?
Whatever i do, when it comes to you,
i know sometimes love plays the part of a fool.

I know what's in store though i can't say much more.
A chance worth the taking has opened its door;
and i can't say i love you, and i can't say i don't,
but i do wish i knew.

breathe again

2010-04-08T18:38:00.002+08:00

it was indeed a tough week i say!but never mind,it's now holiday time!i really want to make use of this trip to relax my mind and body,too much -ve charge lah!oh yeah,i found this song,sung by Juwita Suwito,it's called "Breathe Again". Meaningful lyrics and so inspiring,enjoy it!

Breathe Again

Have you wondered how it feels when it's all over
Wondered how it feels when you just have to start a new
Never knowing where you're going
When you face a brand new day
It used to be that way
Now I just close my eyes and say

*I just want to breathe again
Learn to face the joy and pain
Discover how to laugh a little , cry a little
Live a little more
I just wanna face the day
Forget about the wars of yesterday
Maybe if I hope a little Try a little more
I’ll breathe again*

Starting out again is never easy
Disappointments come and go but life still moves on
With a bit of luck It's a brand new start
That might just work my way
No need to walk away
Don’t want to live life's replay

Repeat *
Things will work out fine
If you can find the courage to look past the night
To see the break of dawn

Repeat *

kasih ibu

2010-04-04T21:14:00.003+08:00

terjumpa keratan komik ni kat fb,betapa besarnya kasih sayang seorang ibu

mama,i love you!

desktop background

2010-03-18T22:28:00.003+08:00

(tag from shikin) - this is my current desktop background :)

y i like it?hoho it's so obvious! i'm a fan of :Paramore!!!! :)
cool ait the pic?the tiger is soooooooooo sexay!!
i malas nk tag orang,if u guys want to do it,just do it

guidance

2010-03-07T12:56:00.003+08:00

oh Allah,we need Your Guidance

Boleh jadi kamu membenci sesuatu padahal ia amat baik bagimu dan boleh jadi kamu menyukai sesuatu padahal ia amat buruk bagi kamu. Allah mengetahui sedang kamu tak mengetahui (Al-Baqarah :216)

:)

2010-03-02T01:09:00.001+08:00

ya Allah ya Tuhanku,ya rabbi ya karim

Kau berikanlah aku kekuatan untuk menghadapi hari-hari yang sukar ini

amin ya rabbal alamin

ya habibi

2010-02-28T17:32:00.000+08:00

Suddenly, there was a person said salaam.
“May I come in?” he asked.
But Fatimah did not allow him enter the room.
I’m sorry, my father is ill,” said Fatimah turned back and closed the door.
She went back to her father who had opened his eyes and asked Fatimah,

“Who was he, my daughter?”

“I don’t know, my father. It was the first time for me to see him,” Fatimah said gently.

Then, Rasulullah looked at his daughter with trembled look, as if he wanted

to reminisce about every part of her daughter’s face.

“Know one thing! He is who erases the temporary pleasure; he is who separates the companionship in the world.

He is the death angel,” said Rasulullah .

Fatimah bore the bomb of her cry. The death angel came toward him,

But Rasulullah asked why Jibril did not come along with him.
Then, Jibril was called. Jibril was ready in the sky to welcome the soul of
Habibullah and the leader of the earth.
“O Jibril, explain me about my rights in front of ALLAH?” Rasulullah asked with a weakest voice.
“The doors of sky has opened, the angels are waiting for your soul.”
“All jannats open widely waiting for you,” Jibril said.

But, in fact, those all did not make Rasulullah relieve, his eyes

were still full of worry.

“You are not happy to hear this news?” asked Jibril.

“Tell me about the destiny of my people in future?”

“Don’t worry, o Rasul ALLAH . I heard ALLAH told me: ‘I make Jannat haram

for every one, except the people of Muhammad”

Jibril said.

It became closer and closer, the time for Malaekat Izrail to dohis work.

Slowly, Rasulullah’s soul was pulled. It was seemed that the body of

Rasulullah was full of sweat; the nerves of his neck became tight.

“Jibril, how pain this sakaratul maut is!”

Rasulullah uttered a groan slowly. Fatimah closed her eyes, Ali sat beside

her bow deeply and Jibril turned his face back.

“Am I repugnant to you that you turn your face back o Jibril?”

Rasulullah asked to the Deliverer of Wahyu.

“Who is the one who could see the Habibullah in his sakaratul maut,” Jibril said.

Not for a while, Rasulullah uttered a groan because of unbearable

pain.
“O ALLAH, how greatest is this sakaratul maut. Give me all these pains,
don’t to my people.”
The body of Rasulullah became cold, his feet and chest did not
move anymore.
His lips vibrated as if he wanted to say something, Ali took his
ear close to Rasulullah .
“Uushiikum bis shalati, wa maa malakat aimanuku – take care the saalat and
take care the weak people among you.”
Outside the room, there were cries shouted at each other, sahabah
held each other. Fatimah closed her face with her hands and, again, Ali took
his ear close to Rasulullah’s mouth which became bluish.

“Ummatii, ummatii, ummatii?” – “My people, my people, my people.”

And the life of the noble man ended.

Could we love each other like him? Allahumma sholli ‘ala Muhammad
wa baarik wa salim ‘alaihi. How deep is Rasulullah’s love to us.

remedy

2010-02-22T02:42:00.008+08:00

how to heal this broken heart?guess if u give me tickets to go for :PARAMORE's concert at Singapore this coming March,maybe i'll be ok.can't huh?then i'm NOT okay for the time being.

[ Maybe i know somewhere deep in my soul that love never lasts.And we've got to find other ways to make it alone.Keep a straight face.And i've always lived like this keeping a comfortable distance.And up until now i had sworn to myself that i'm content with LONELINESS ]

sunday afternoon

2010-02-21T17:20:00.004+08:00

dear blog,

i wish i can write everything i felt here,because i know i just can't,it's too personal.
but it hurts so bad that i can't keep it inside my heart,i might burst out crying.
heh,something wrong with me,wish it didn't turn up to be like this.
i may be dumb but i'm not stupid,
enough with the efforts,guess this is not the right one for me.

i should quit this nonsense.
(like i could)

MISSION AWARENESS PROGRAM 2010 RECRUITMENT DRIVE

2010-02-17T01:43:00.002+08:00

gedik punye hati

2010-02-17T01:29:00.002+08:00

10 jam sebelum bertolak pulang ke UTP ( ye kawan2,saya masih di rumah :P)

beg da siap pek,tinggal nak tunggu masa bertolak je
serius tamau balik sana,ade perasaan takut,sedih,xrela nak tinggalkan rumah
ceh macam budak kecik je,bajet rumah jauh sgt lah,3 jam je kot
ni la realitinya,setiap kali habis cuti mesti hati memberontak tamau balik sana
tapi kali ni ade tambah lagi 1 macam perasaaan yg mana saya takut dikecewakan (kenapa?ha yg tu rahsia!)
gedik punya hati!
suka suki je dia nak rase ape,menyusahkan tuan dia saja,
ya Allah,tenangkanlah hati ini,jauhkanlah daripada bisikan syaitan ini ya Allah

dah tak larat nak layan hati ini,tak larat nak kecewa lagi

Lady Antebellum - Need You Know

2010-02-14T16:07:00.005+08:00

Picture perfect memories,
Scattered all around the floor.
Reaching for the phone cause, I can't fight it any more.
And I wonder if I ever cross your mind.
For me it happens all the time.

It's a quarter after one, I'm all alone and I need you now.
Said I wouldn't call  but I lost all control and I need you now.
And I don't know how I can do without, I just need you now.

Another shot of whiskey, can't stop looking at the door.
Wishing you'd come sweeping in the way you did before.
And I wonder if I ever cross your mind.
For me it happens all the time.

It's a quarter after one, I'm a little drunk,
And I need you now.
Said I wouldn't call but I lost all control and I need you now.
And I don't know how I can do without, I just need you now.

Yes I'd rather hurt than feel nothing at all.
It's a quarter after one, I'm all alone and I need you now.
And I said I wouldn't call but I'm a little drunk and I need you now.
And I don't know how I can do without, I just need you now.
I just need you now.
Oh baby I need you now.


p/s : has nothing to do with Valentine's day,im not celebrating it,
juz terasa kesian kt diri sendiri jap,tssk :(

dear heart

2010-01-18T01:50:00.001+08:00

i found this at facebook,and i love the words,Allahuakbar! :)

when your life is in darkness and Nothing seems right,

just remember through the darkness Allah is the light ♥

2010

2010-01-01T00:51:00.004+08:00

bila malam tahun baru,beramai2 lah manusia dok wish sana sini "happy new year" sume2 tu,kepada yang wish saya tu,terima kasih sbb ingat kat orang di sini,hehe,happy new year 2 u too...

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pelik kan dengan budaya zaman sekarang ni,tahun baru diraikan dengan sambutan yang gah nye,kat malaysia sendiri,asal tahun baru je mesti ada konsert sambutan tahun baru.

ok kepada yang bukan beragama Islam,terpulang lah kepada anda nak celebrate cemane,tapi yang banyak perform kat atas stage tu rata2 nya orang ape?orang Melayu jugak,orang Islam jugak,xpaham btol.bukan nak berlagak usatazah kat sini,ye saya tau konfem ade yg terasa/xpuas ati ngan post ni,mintak maaf la banyak2 eh,just nak share opinion saya dalam hal ni,taknak baca takpe,sila tukar ke page lain...

kepada yg teruskan pembacaan tu,lebih2 lagi yang beragama Islam,jom kita renung-renungkn sejenak hal ni...cuba kawan2 fikir,kalau kita tengok kat mne2 ensiklopedia n search pasal malaysia,kat situ kita diberitahu yang Malaysia ni negara Islam,tapi kalau fikir logik la,di mane Islam nye?

Islam ade ke ajar kita untuk meraikan tahun baru dengan konsert2 mega tu semua?sepatutnya kita bersyukur kepada Allah sebab diberikan peluang untuk bernafas,melihat lagi dunia untuk tahun berikutnya.sepatutnya kita buat sujud syukur,solat hajat moga2 dipermudahkan urusan di tahun baru ini.ni tidak,ramai manusia yang seronok bersuka ria,menari2,berpesta sambil melihat persembahan bunga api di kala menjelangnya tahun baru.ok,siapa x suke bunga api kan?saya pun suke tengok bunga api,cantik!tapi berpada2 lah,jangan lah sampai lupe diri menyambutnya.cuba bayangkan kalau kita tengah2 sedap berpesta xkesah lah di klcc ke,dataran merdeka ke,mane2 la,n Allah murka terhadap kita lalu diturunkan bala ketika itu,nauzubillah!nak ke kita mati dalam keadaan yang dimurkai Allah?nak tunggu datang tsunami,gempa bumi,halilintar bru kite nak insaf?

Allahuakbar,moga Allah ampunkan dosa kita semua,mari sama2 kita perbaiki diri kita,tiada manusia yg sempurna kat dunia ni,sebab tu la kena saling ingat mengingati,moga kita sentiasa di jalanNya,insyaAllah.satu lagi nak kongsi,kalau kita tengok pengebom berani mati yang kat luar sana tu,target tempat pengeboman selalunya adalah tempat orang awam berkumpul,lebih2 lagi untuk sambutan2 begini.bukanlah nak menakut2kan sesiapa atau mendoakan yang bukan2 tapi macam2 boleh terjadi bukan?elakkanlah pergi ke tempat2 begitu ye kawan2...

k lah,rasenye tu je kot nak kongsi dalam post kali ni,alang2 tu nak mintak maaf kat siapa2 yang saya pernah buat salah,mintak diampunkan ye,halalkan makan minum mane yang teramek tu eh,kalau nampak saya ade wat silap tu,tegur2 la ye,last skali,happy new year to everyone,may Allah bless our new journey for 2010,all the best everyone!

lots of love,
nisa :)

azam tahun baru?

2009-12-31T00:02:00.002+08:00

tiap2 tahun,bile nak dekat2 tahun baru macam sekarang ni mesti ramai je yang berkobar2 nak buat azam tahun baru...masalahnye,tercapaikah azam2 tahun2 lepas tu,kalau yg tercapai 2 baguslah,alhamdulillah tahniah kepada anda,tapi yang tak tercapai tu cemane?buang je ke?ok la,taknak cakap pasal orang lain,kita cakap pasal diri sendiri je la kan,hoho bila pikir2 balik,banyak jugak azam/harapan/cita-cita tahun ni/tahun lpas yang terkandas...camtu buat ape la nk ade azam kalau setakat hangat2 tahi ayam,jadi kena la muhasabah sket kat diri sendiri ni,berusaha kuat lagi!jangan dok main2 je,serius sket,kalau x cemane nak azam tercapai,ye tak?takut sebenarnya nak hadapi tahun baru ni,lebih2 lagi semester jan 2010 ni adalah sem yang menentukan ke mana arah tuju internship nanti,pointer mesti tinggi woh (sem2 lain pon patot kena tinggi gak,ish3)...tibe2 terpikir pasal result sem ni yg bakal kluar mungkin 2 minggu lagi?argh,tensen!

summary

2009-12-22T09:39:00.005+08:00

july 09 semester break da lame start sejak habisnya last paper,Hydraulics,23 Nov lepas tapi rase cm bru2 ni je cuti bermula.bru2 ni je dapat berehat.ape yg dah dilakukan dlm tempoh sebulan ni??jom kite imbas balik~

24.Nov.09 : balik rumah
tumpang kete nad balik KL,1st tym blk hjg sem tmpg kwn,almaklumlah dah anta dulu brg2 blk rmh,kalau x,mne muat nk tmpg kete org,hoho,blk skali dengan duwe yg dok kt seat blkg pose gaya model,haha terbaik lah!anyway thanks a lot nad n duwe ;)
next - busy ngan preparation kenduri Ibal

29.Nov.09 : Ibal's wedding
my bro's wedding,it's the 1st one for my family,really excited bout it,preparation cam whoah,penat gile tapi best!the best part was,some of my relatives said the same thing to my mom which was "kita doa moga2 lepas ni wedding ada tiap2 tahun,every year ade anak Kak Nani yg kahwin"
wooohhooooo,seriously i like that sentence,amin cepat-cepat!Amin... :P

3.Dec.09 - 14.Dec.09 : Khemah Ibadah Musim Cuti Sekolah 2009 (plus ToT)
perkara yg paling best utk cuti sem ni (so far) .dilantik sbg ajk kebajikan (welfare) at first place,tp sbb x cukup fasi,tpakse jd fasi jugak,wuwuuuu mule2 mmg x konfiden nak ajar budak2 ni,ye la,mane la cukup ilmu agama,mane ade manusia perfect,mmg ade banyak yg kena perbaiki ni tp atas dorongan dan sokongan kwn,cewwah ayt poyo,bjaye la habiskan program ni,moga2 adik2 tu dapat manfaatkan ape yang diorang dapat dari KI ni,time kaseh kawan2 :)

jagalah hati anda dengan baik,jangan sampai dihitamkan ;)

adik2 bawah jagaan saya,ramai btol adik perempuan saya! :)

dayana,cutest girl in KI09!

15.Dec.09 : balik rumah!wooohooooo
setelah 2 minggu hidup dalam ketakutan kt v3 tu(bukan takut hantu,tp takut kantoi ngan kak shida sbb jadi penunggu haram),akhirnya dapat balik rumah,cuti sem yg sebenar akan bermula,owyeahhhh!!!thanks to aza n her dad,tumpang mereka balik rumah,teruja ble dpt tau rupe2nye rmh ktorg dekat je,hoho

18.Dec.09 : SOGO
shopping la ape lagi kan?tapi yg ni kena paksa ikut sbnrnye,teman mak beli beg,tu pn sbb dijanjikan purse baru plus kena marah ngan kakak barulah ikut g sana,kali terakhir pegi,masa form 4 kot,seriously x suke Sogo,mule2 x igt nape,tapi bile berada dlm crowd manusia yg terdiri drpd makcik2,kakak2 dan seangkatan dgnnye yg rambang mata tgk beg kasut baju kiri kanan,barulah teringat,oh this is why i hate sogo,sesak tahap dewa,plus bengang bile msuk surau sogo,jumpe plak perempuan2 yg sgt selfish di dlmnye.boleh plak duduk2,sembang2 kt tgh2 alam,mengganggu lalu lintas padahal ramai gile org yg tengah beratur tunggu turn nak solat.hui berapinye dengan makhluk2 ini,rase nak sepak sorang2 biar diorg terbang jauh,clear sket jalan tuh.hish menyusahkan org btol...but atleast puas hati la dpt purse baru tajaan mak,heheh...

20.Dec.09 : kendurikendurikenduri
1st,kenduri anak cikgu fadzillah,yg best nye buat kat dewan SBPI Gombak,my school!!husband cikgu dormm8 abah,so abah dpt jemputan of course la abah bawak saya kan,cikgu fadzillah cikgu saya.excited gile bile sampai sekolah,lame woh x dtg sini,kali terakhir mse amek sijil spm 2thn lepas,jumpa cikgu2....terharu gile bile cikgu fadzillah n ustazah siti ingat lg name saya,sayang cikgu2!:D mood mmg sgt bagus pastu...then seriously la,1st time pergi 3 kenduri kawen dlm mase 1 hari,lpas kenduri anak cikgu,g plak 2 lg kenduri,kesian kat perut hari 2,macam da xnak masuk mknn da,fully loaded,ramai btol org kahwin hjg2 tahun ni

22.Dec.09 : J Card Day!!
hari yg ditunggu2 akhirnye tibe!mmg hectic gle la jj hri tu,penuh dengan mak2 shin chan,sesak gle,mmg best la sume brg ade diskaun,tp malangnye semangat mak-shin-chan saya x cukup kuat lg,tensen bile ramai sgt org,x sanggup nak compete dengan mereka yg ternyata jauh lg pro ni,kalah year end sale,mmg serius sesak,troli pn mcm x cukup,dahsyat sungguh!

terasa mcm cukup padat jadual hidup baru2 ni,baru nak nikmati cuti yang berbaki ni...ade sape2 nak g ice skating,jom kawan2?

haih...

2009-11-22T01:30:00.005+08:00

teringin nak :

main ice skating - sape2 berminat nak main???jom?
tengok live orchestra kat philharmonik - everytime plan mesti x jadik,haish
main go-kart - haha,xpenah main lagi...

pastu teringin plak nak pergi :

cameron! - kali terakhir pergi darjah 5 kot,pdahal cameron 2 dekat je ngan utp :(
penang! - xpenah jejakkan lagi kaki kt penang,jom korg g penang?
sarawak - nak makan seafood die banyak2 please!!wuwu...

harap2 cuti ni atleast ade 1 2 yg tercapai....

teringin,teringin dan teringin,
NISA

BISMILLAH

2009-11-05T14:47:00.001+08:00

Itu satu daripada amalan yang membantu kita apabila

Kita dikembalikan kepada yang Hak...

Wassalam

Mukjizat di sebalik BISMILLAH

BISMILLAH adalah sebutan/nama singkat dari lafaz

BISMILLAHIR ROHMAANIR ROHIIM' yang bermaksud

'Dengan nama ALLAH Yang Maha Pengasih lagi Maha Penyayang.'

KELEBIHAN-KELEBIHAN BISMILLAH

1.. Yang pertama ditulis Qalam adalah BISMILLAH. Maka

apabila kamu menulis sesuatu, maka tulislah BISMILLAH pada

awalnya kerana BISMILLAH tertulis pada setiap wahyu yang

Allah turunkan kepada Jibrail..

2.. BISMILLAH untukmu dan umahmu, suruhlah mereka

apabila memohon sesuatu dengan BISMILLAH.

Aku tidak akan meninggalkannya sekejap mata pun sejak BISMILLAH

diturunkan kepada Adam. '(Hadith Qudsi)

3.. Tatkala BISMILLAH diturunkan ke dunia, maka semua

Awan berlari ke arah barat, angin terdiam, air laut

bergelora, mendengarkan seluruh binatang dan terlempar semua

syaitan.

4.. Demi Allah dan keagunganNya, tidaklah BISMILLAH

Itu dibacakan pada orang sakit melainkan menjadi ubat

untuknya dan tidaklah BISMILLAH dibacakan di atas sesuatu

melainkan Allah beri berkat ke atasnya.

5.. Barangsiapa yang ingin hidup bahagia dan mati syahid,

maka bacalah BISMILLAH setiap kali memulakan sesuatu

perkara yang baik.

6.. Jumlah huruf dalam BSMILLAH ada 19 huruf dan

malaikat penjaga neraka ada 19 (QS. AL Muddatsir: 30).

Ibnu Masud berkata: 'Sesiapa yang ingin Allah selamatkan

dari 19 malaikat neraka maka bacalah BISMILLAH 19 kali

setiap hari. '

7.. Tiap huruf BISMILLAH ada JUNNAH (penjaga/khadam)

Hingga tiap huruf berkata, ' Siapa yang membaca BISMILLAH

Maka kamilah kekuatannya dan kamilah kehebatannya. '

8.. Barangsiapa yang memuliakan tulisan BISMILLAH

Nescaya Allah akan mengangkat namanya di syurga yang sangat

tinggi dan diampunkan segala dosa kedua orang tuanya.

9.. Barangsiapa yang membaca BISMILLAH maka akan

bertasbihlah segala gunung kepadanya.

10.Barangsiapa yang membaca BISMILLAH sebanyak 21

Kali ketika hendak tidur, maka akan terpelihara dari

Gangguan syaitan, kecurian dan kebakaran, maut mendadak dan

bala.

11.Barangsiapa yang membaca BISMILLAH sebanyak 50 kali di

hadapan orang yang zalim, hinalah dan masuk ketakutan

dalam hati si zalim serta naiklah keberanian dan kehebatan

kepada si pembaca..

ALLAHUAKBAR!!!

2009-11-02T21:20:00.000+08:00

There were only 15 minutes left before Solat-ul Isha {The night prayer}.

He quickly made Wudhu {purification washing of the face, hands, head, ears, and feet} and then, performed Solat-ul Maghrib {The dusk prayer}.

While making Tasbih {praising of ALLAH}, he again remembered his grandmother and was
embarrassed by how he had prayed.

His grandmother prayed with such tranquillity and peace.

He began making Dua{suplications} and went down to make Sajdah{prostration} and stayed like that
for a while.

He had been at work all day and was tired, so tired.

He awoke abruptly to the sound of noise and shouting.

He was sweating profusely.

He looked around.

It was very crowded.

Every direction he looked in was filled with people.

Some stood frozen looking around, some were running left and right and
some were on their knees with their heads in their hands just waiting.

Pure fear and apprehension filled him as he realized where he was.

His heart was about to burst.

It was the Day of Judgment.

When he was alive, he had heard many things about the questioning on the

Day of Judgment, but that seemed so long ago..

Could this be something his mind made up?

No, the wait and the fear were so great that he could not have imagined this.

The interrogation was still going on.

He began moving frantically from people to people to ask if his name
had been called.

No one could answer him.

All of a sudden his name was called and the crowd split into two and
made a passageway for him.

Two angels grabbed his arms and led him forward.

He walked with unknowing eyes through the crowd.

The angels brought him to the centre and left him there.

His head was bent down and his whole life was passing in front of his
eyes like a movie.

He opened his eyes but saw only another world.

The people were all helping others.

He saw his father running from one lecture to the other, spending his
wealth in the way of Islam.

His mother invited guests to their house and one table was being set
while the other was being cleared.

He pleaded his case,

'I too was always on this path..

I helped others.

I spread the words of Allah.

I performed my Solah{prayers} .

I fasted in the month of Ramadhan.

Whatever ALLAH ordered us to do, I did.

Whatever HE ordered us not to do, I did not.'

He began to cry and think about how much he loved ALLAH.

He knew that whatever he had done in life would be less than what
ALLAH deserved and his only protector was ALLAH... He was sweating like
never before and was shaking all over.

His eyes were fixed on the scale, waiting for the final decision.

At last, the decision was made.

The two angels with sheets of paper in their hands, turned to the crowd.

His legs felt like they were going to collapse.

He closed his eyes as they began

To read the names of those people who were to enter Jahannam{the worst Hell Fire}.

His name was read first.

He fell on his knees and yelled that this couldn't be,

'How could I go to Jahannam{the worst Hell Fire}?

I served others all my life,

I spread the words of ALLAH to others'.

His eyes had become blurry and he was shaking with sweat.

The two angels took him by the arms.

As his feet dragged, they went through the crowd and advanced toward
the blazing flames of Jahannam{the worst Hell Fire}.

He was yelling and wondered if there was any person who was going to help him.

He was yelling of all the good deeds he had done, how he had helped
his father, his fasts, prayers, the Noble Qur'an that he read, he was
asking if none of them would help him.

The Jahannam angels continued to drag him.

They had gotten closer to the Hellfire.

He looked back and these were his last pleas.

Had not Rasulullah [S.A.W.] {Messanger of ALLAH Muhammad Peace be upon him} said;

'How clean would a person be who bathes in a river five times a day,
so too does the Solah performed five times cleanse someone of their
sins'?

He began yelling,

'My prayers? My prayers? My prayers.?'

The two angels did not stop, and they came to the edge of the abyss of Jahannam{The Worst Hell Fire}.

The flames of the Fire were burning his face.

He looked back one last time, but his eyes were dry of hope and he had
nothing left in him.

One of the angels pushed him in.

He found himself in the air and falling towards the Flames.

He had just fallen five or six feet when a hand grabbed him by the arm
and pulled him back.

He lifted his head and saw an old man with a long white beard.

He wiped some dust off himself and asked him,

'Who are you?'

The old man replied,

'I am your prayers'.

'Why are you so late! I was almost in the Fire!

You rescued me at the last minute before I fell in'.

The old man smiled and shook his head,

'You always performed me at the last minute, did you forget?'

At that instant, he blinked and lifted his head from Sajdah{prostation} .

He was in a sweat.

He listened to the voices coming from outside.

He heard the Adhan{call for prayer} for Solat-ul Isha{the night prayer}.

He got up quickly and went to perform Wudhu{purification washing of the face, hands, head, ears, and feet}.

Pass this on to your friends and family.... ...

Maybe, you can help someone open their eyes.

And who knows?

Maybe, this is a good deed that can help you during the day of judgement.

(INSYAALLAH)

depression

2009-10-28T22:16:00.004+08:00

pernah tak pada suatu ketika tu kamu tibe2 je rase sedih x tentu pasal?kamu rase seperti takde siapa dlm dunia yg boleh faham perasaan kamu.sepi.sunyi.rasa seperti dunia menjadi mendung,kelam dan suram...ye,itu yg saya rasa sekarang,mulalah perkara2 sedih bermain di fikiran.tak tahu lah kalau perasaan negatif itu jika diluahkan di sini,ia dapat membantu mengurangkan rasa sedih di hati.rasanye tidak.sebab pasti ada mulut2 yang tiada insurans akan mengeluarkan komen2 yang pedas lagi menyakitkan hati seperti : "ko ni emo la nisa,sket2 nak sedey2" takpun "apsal ko nak sedey xtentu pasal??ko ni selalu fikir negatif" ... saya tak perlukan komen seperti tu di sini.sekurang-kurangnya bukan di sini.dulu saya fikir dengan adanya blog,kita boleh luahkan semua yang kita rasa di blog kita,tapi sebenarnya,blog pun tiada privacy...ada sahaja yang akan membangkang/membantah kata-kata kita seolah2 blog ni dia yang punya...ntah la...rasa macam nak terjun tasik UTP tu,hilangkan segala tekanan...

thank you my friend

2009-10-28T21:21:00.007+08:00

let's appreciate our friend who always be there for us during happy and sad times.i can't live without them,honestly. so,today i want to thank all my friend out there,and i dedicate this song to you girls and guys.thank you my friend! :)

Demi Lovato - Gift of A Friend

Sometimes you think you'll be fine by yourself
Cause a dream is a wish you make all alone
It's easy to feel like you don't need help
But it's harder to walk on your own

You'll change inside
When you realize
The world comes to life
And everything's right
From benginning to end
When you have a friend by your side
That helps you to find
The beauty you are
When you'll open your heart
And believe in
The gift of a friend

Someone who knows when you're lost and you're scared
There through the highs and the lows
Someone you can count on,someone who cares
Besides you where ever you go
And when your hope crashes down
Shattering to the ground
You'll,you'll feel all alone
When you don't know which way to go
And there's no signs leading you home
You're not alone

The world comes to life
And everything's right
From beginning to end
When you have a friend by your side
That helps you to find
The beauty you are
When you'll open your heart
And believe in
When you believe in
You can believe in